Friday, June 05, 2009

I Was Waiting to Exhale and When I Did

I cannot remember being as tired ever as I was yesterday when all the sudden a lot of my stress drove away. It was like I had been waiting to exhale for months and when I did I felt as though every ounce of energy I had had been sucked out of me. Fortunately, I was able to stay alert and fairly awake to minimally supervise (because that's how they like it) and end of the year party for about 15 7th graders... but I was in bed by 9:30. I was simply drained.

THis morning, however, I woke up at six and could not go back to sleep so here I am, on the first day of summer, at my desk by 7, a load of laundry in the washer, bedroom tidied and bed made, and me showered, teeth brushed, ready for the day. We have nothing on the schedule for today other that Sadie working a couple hours at her job and waiting for Bart and Jimmy to return from up north, which probably wont happen until this evening. Maybe I"ll plan a fun little outing for this afternoon if I can finish what I have to do for work this morning. Or maybe we'll all just enjoy the fresh air, not polluted by anger or resentment or estrogen on steroids and feel the freedom for the day.

Don't let my exaggeration fool you -- I already miss them a bit, but there is something about everyone else having some psychic space that is pleasant. Surely there are others of you out there who may not admit it or blog it, but who have a child or two or five who cause the most stress and when they are not around the house is a different place...

6 comments:

Mom of 7 said...

"Surely there are others of you out there who may not admit it or blog it, but who have a child or two or five who cause the most stress and when they are not around the house is a different place..."

I admit it, Claudia! Even when they are home and NOT causing stress, I still feel stressed because I'm waiting for the next thing to happen.

Corrine said...

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PLEASE!!!

Torina said...

I have admitted it (and summarily been attacked for it). I have a kid who is extremely stressful to parent. She is HARD. She drains me. I love her so much my heart could burst. But that doesn't stop me from counting down the days until she goes to camp!!! ONLY THREE DAYS LEFT!!! YAHOOOOOO!!!!

Cindy said...

So how 'bout I admit on YOUR blog then? Yes, we finally have peace and calm around here after so many years of incredible stress. It does feel like you're finally able to exhale.

In His peace - Cindy
MoM(Mom of Many)
www.faithfulpromises.blogspot.com

Cindy said...

Is this where I can yell DUH?

Lisa said...

I have two kids going to camp at different times and there is a two day overlap where they'll BOTH be gone at the same time. It will be like Christmas in July here when that happens. I would NEVER have admitted that even a few years ago. Now? I am exhausted and the rare times when one or the other is not here the whole dynamic of the house changes. We can even tell the difference when one of them enters a room. I agree with Mom of 7 - I have one in particular that I cannot even enjoy when he's being good because I'm waiting for the next thing to happen - and it always does.

Enjoy your time.....you deserve it and the rest of the household does too!