Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I'm Riding the Ride and Definitely not Driving
I hate being a control freak. But I am one, nonetheless. And I am usually pretty good about maintaining my own anxiety and keeping it under control. But today i'm feeling so out of my own loop that it is getting to me.
i have teens texting me TELLING me what they are going to do, never asking, making dumb decisions doing things that I would tell them not to and not letting me know until they are in the middle of them and I'm feeling like I'm on a ride, one that I am definitely not in charge of.
ANd I ended a sentence with a preposition, something I was told not to ever do. Shame on me.
I think I am still battling a bit of resentment. But hey folks, I chose a different ride than the one I'm on. I didn't choose an easy one, I knew I was going to be on an amusement park ride, maybe a very scary one, but I ALWAYS intended to control the wheel
So here I am, needing to figure out how in the world I'm going to be able to relax enough to survive the journey without serious emotional whiplash.
It's a daily struggle lately, but I'm sure it has something to do with my current frenzied life and it will all get better someday.