Thursday, February 18, 2010

Quick Update that was Supposed to be A Lot Longer

I was going to blog about my night, my night, my night..... my endless night....

(breaking into song again)

but I'm too tired. Stomach issues as a result of medicine for pneumonia have added another layer of stress to my body and mind and you will have to wait about the post about my talking veins and wheezing arguments, and my tour of the house trying almost every free available flat surface to see if I could sleep better....

I had a heart to heart with Salinda on the phone today and hopefully it will help. At least I feel like she is going to consider working with me instead of against me. If we can at least get her that far....

I am so tired of being a burden and not a contribution. It's driving me insane. My positive mental attitude is dwindling.....

4 comments:

GB's Mom said...

You can borrow some of mine!

waldenbunch said...

You have been through an incredibly scary and exhausting ordeal. Give yourself a break and realize it's WHO you are not WHAT you do. I struggle with that one, too. I'm new to your blog but we're all in this struggle with wounded kids together. God bless you and give you a good night's sleep.

Jennie said...

hoping beyond hope that Salinda will listen to some motherly wisdom. Just an aside thought, do you think she might be suffering Post Partum depression? I can only imagine what it must feel like to be adopted, torn from a birth mother for whatever reason and then holding one's own child and wondering, wondering, fretting, fearing ... tough stuff. Anyway, I might be way off.

Teresa said...

It took me long years of chronic illness to realize that worth is not productivity. I still struggle with it.
Do not measure your influence by what you accomplish. Small things bring great things to pass. Look at all of us out here in the blogosphere you are touching!
If it helps, pick a project to do while you are resting. Something you would not normally take the time to do. Make a baby blanket for a friend, label your family photos, cut out visual aids for a teacher. I did this each surgery and it helps. Think of this as an opportunity to accomplish what you would not otherwise have done!
Teresa