I hate being a control freak. But I am one, nonetheless. And I am usually pretty good about maintaining my own anxiety and keeping it under control. But today i'm feeling so out of my own loop that it is getting to me.
i have teens texting me TELLING me what they are going to do, never asking, making dumb decisions doing things that I would tell them not to and not letting me know until they are in the middle of them and I'm feeling like I'm on a ride, one that I am definitely not in charge of.
ANd I ended a sentence with a preposition, something I was told not to ever do. Shame on me.
I think I am still battling a bit of resentment. But hey folks, I chose a different ride than the one I'm on. I didn't choose an easy one, I knew I was going to be on an amusement park ride, maybe a very scary one, but I ALWAYS intended to control the wheel
So here I am, needing to figure out how in the world I'm going to be able to relax enough to survive the journey without serious emotional whiplash.
It's a daily struggle lately, but I'm sure it has something to do with my current frenzied life and it will all get better someday.
Well, hmmm, at least they are texting you! Better than not telling you anything, right? Maybe not knowing would be less stressful, I don't know.
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