I'm trying to prepare myself for an email or call saying another child has been chosen for the potential son we are hoping to adopt. I think I might be able to compare my feelings to that of a mom of four or five kids already who wasn't necessarily planning on or hoping to getting pregnant but thinks she might be. I know that I would love to be his mom... and yet I know the work that is involved in transitioning a child into our home. So even though it will totally be worth it, if we get the email or call (the pee stick), I will be thrilled if it is positive but if it is negative I just might be able to convince myself that it is a good thing because I am already happy with what I have.
But I'll still be disappointed.
Yesterday I was completely exhausted from after church until I went to bed at 8:45 and I am not feeling all that rested this morning. I think maybe some of my medication must be off so I will be having labs done and see if that is why I'm so sluggish. I feel like I could go back to bed already!
We have Isaac here today -- so I guess I'll have to wait until his nap time to take mine :-)