Saturday, May 16, 2009

The Morning After the Day Before

Yesterday I was too exhausted and numb to process the news we received. I was almost like a robot -- talking things over with Bart as each thing happened, calling Kari and Cindy and my mother (who doesn't touch computers, much less have a blog). I kept ingesting the news and trying to live with it, but since I had already cried my eyes out in frustration during the morning, I had nothing left. I only sob like that about once a year, so I was done with that....

But this morning I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a mac truck emotionally. I have very little strength to face some of these situations. I figure I better give you some hints so that you aren't speculating so much (or calling Cindy or Kari for the scoop ;-)

One is minor and routine and involves Mike. The police were at our house yesterday, Rand was the only one home and apparently they insisted on coming into the house to look for him. We're not sure why except that they left saying that if Rand saw MIke he should tell him that if he was on High School property (the school our kids attend) one more time, that he would be arrested.

Salinda's news is hers. Our other kids don't even know yet so I won't share it here. Most of you will figure it out. She has decisions to make, but will be heavily influenced to choose a road which involves her escaping our home.

And finally John was apparently arrested yesterday. The girlfriend he moved in with apparently is quite a bit younger and her parents are divorced. When her dad discovered that his ex-wife had allowed an adult male to move in with them, apparently he called the police and they took him away. We are reading between the lines. Of course the girlfriend called Salinda and said" He didn't do anything wrong. I don't know why he's being arrested." Apparently court is Monday according to the grapevine, but we don't know if any of this is even true.

So there you have it in no detail. I have a busy day ahead with multiple responsibilities, and i'm not sure how I'll get through it, but you know, I always do...

14 comments:

Marge said...

Sending thoughts and prayers.

Yondalla said...

we will be thinking about you!

debbie said...

no great words of wisdom here, but thoughts are with you.

Mom of 7 said...

I'm so sorry for what you are going through, Claudia. Hang in there! I'll be thinking of you and praying.

Michelle

Other Mother said...

Praying for you, Bart, the children involved, and the rest of your family. {{{Hugs}}}

Torina said...

My thoughts are with you. (((HUGS)))

Corey said...

Oh, Claudia.

At least your blog is aptly named.

Sometimes there is just nothing to say. So I'm just sitting here with you, friend.

Linda B. said...

Praying for all of you Claudia. I'm glad you have a couple of close friends you can share this with.

Mary said...

Lots of prayers. I keep remembering something that's been a "theme" in your most recent writings. I'm paraphrasing (and probably not too well). You can guide your children and show them what your expectations are but you can't choose their paths for them. You can be there to let them know you love them and care for them, but their decisions are their own.

Take care of yourself.

Linda up north said...

Oh Claudia, I am praying for you, Bart and your kids as well. Facing the poor choices of your kids (birth or adopted) is just so full of heartache and stress... and so immobilizing. I know with God's help you will get past this.
The Peace of Christ be upon you.

Spinner said...

Aw, Claudia, I'm so sorry to hear this--so much at once to deal with. Prayers are with you.

Corrine said...

We will be thinking of you, and sending our best thoughts your way.

Be strong, and remember to breath.

yolie said...

So sorry, Claudia. If I were closer, I'd come over and be your "yolie" for a while. I'm sure mama would share. My prayers are with you guys.

Julie said...

[i'm not sure how I'll get through it, but you know, I always do...]

But you will receive power when (Acts 1 somewhere)... you don't get the power until it is needed. And you will be strengthened now too.

Praying for you all.