One of my commenters asked what the best way is to handle the stress of the children indicating that respite is sometimes even more stressful than keeping them at home.
I have some really bad news. There is really only one way -- and that is to take care of yourself. And, most unfortunately, this includes a balanced diet and exercise. These two things, if you are anything like me, are the very last things I feel like incorporating into my life when things are going bad. Instead I get more sedentary and eat all the wrong things.
This morning I went back to the Y with some chick that names her family members after items from the coffee shop. I had to go back. I had nearly killed myself the past month and gained a lot of weight. You'll have to click over to the link to read more about that.
My number one point when I talk to people is that we have to take care of ourselves. The positive mental energy that comes self-care is the only thing that will allow us to survive our children when the times aren't good. Conquering small exercise goals for me has become a very important way for me to feel in control of my life historically. Knowing that by 6:30 a.m. I have already done a very good thing for myself puts me in a frame of mind that allows me to interact more positively with my children.
If you follow Cindy's blog you'll know that she parents 39 kids, some of whom make mine look like really easy kids. And if you read her blog more you will see that she gets more exercise than me and 10 of my friends combined, eats nothing but good pure vegetables without pesticides and no meat, and is constantly looking for ways to improve her health. If she was as unhealthy as I am she most certainly would not be alive today.
So after spending the last three weeks getting as close to suicide by food as possible, it's now time for me to hop back on the bandwagon. I'm tied of feeling like my life is controlling me... now it's time for me to be in charge again. And unfortunately, this is the only way I know how to do it.
Hopefully you won't be reading soon that I have given up again, but even if I do, at least I'll have a few days where I'm heading in the right direction.
Anyone else in need of a complete health overhaul?