Bart articulates the whole situation in a profound way.
We are still reeling in the aftermath, but there is a whole lot less tension in our home. When it is here you don’t realize how palpable it is. Until it is gone. Every morning, I was on edge wondering what time he would wake up and what he would do when he did. Every night, as Bart mentioned, we had the struggle of getting him medicated and in bed. When he was here we knew that none of our stuff was safe. He wandered around the house at night when we were sleeping sometimes and it was hard to sleep not knowing what he might be doing. We had to be very cautious with everything and it took it’s toll.
Now we have a different set of stressors -- court hearings, county involvement, when and how much to visit, call or write, his anger that will be directed at us for being the one that called the cops, etc. But we will be safe. And if Maslow was right, maybe all of the kids can move to love/belonging, status (esteem), and self-actualization if we can at least convince them they are safe.
We are still reeling in the aftermath, but there is a whole lot less tension in our home. When it is here you don’t realize how palpable it is. Until it is gone. Every morning, I was on edge wondering what time he would wake up and what he would do when he did. Every night, as Bart mentioned, we had the struggle of getting him medicated and in bed. When he was here we knew that none of our stuff was safe. He wandered around the house at night when we were sleeping sometimes and it was hard to sleep not knowing what he might be doing. We had to be very cautious with everything and it took it’s toll.
Now we have a different set of stressors -- court hearings, county involvement, when and how much to visit, call or write, his anger that will be directed at us for being the one that called the cops, etc. But we will be safe. And if Maslow was right, maybe all of the kids can move to love/belonging, status (esteem), and self-actualization if we can at least convince them they are safe.
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